A day to think...

After some time to allow P her thoughts. I realized I too need a moment for myself and gather my ever rushed mind. Am pleased I shall see her today. Extremely happy to have her in my life. I'm scared I may become a goof-ball and muckup some things. I shall tred lightly for her sake as well as mine.

Where is the time:

I keep looking at my watch and finding that time is running faster than I am. Anticipation of her face smiling at me has my heart a flutter. But I feel like a train ever speeding down a blind track. Perhaps my thoughts are new and clear and I'm fearful of some negative force disturbing my perfect moment. Thoughts of my life moving in the right direction has me confused. I'm used to a push to a lower level of existance. Perhaps I'm not used to all this positive reinforcement P has show. Perhaps I'm scared of something. I have a lot to ponder as the hours tick away until I see my dear loving P. I want to be honest with myself as well as her. I can work through this.

Word of the day: Scared