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So yeah, new setting new post. Might as well. I'm sitting here at work on the 52nd floor of some building waiting for something to happen. Sort of like an on call seat of sorts. Well I'm not in Boston anymore. I'm in the middle of Seattle, Washington. I sort of uprooted everything and took a bus cross country and now reside here. I have been here for 1 month and 2 weeks so far. I've got a job, and am slowly starting to make friends. It's not a huge deal I guess. Yet I still feel like an alien in my own country. I know it isn't too different from back home but different enough to make me rethink most of what I do here.

So with all that I've been reading a boat load of books. Nothing worth mentioning as of yet. I have also taken a liking to the lake up the road a bit from where I am staying. A semi-peaceful place to sit in the good weather, read, write and just exist. Not to mention watch people go along with daily life.

I know I am bit far out of my comfort zone and a bit out of my element. That doesn't stop me from making the most out of it. A lot has been going on and barely anything has been happening all at once. I'm my usual quasi flustered self trying to make sense of the choices I have made that brought me here. I miss Kat like a mad man. I feel like I'm a bad father for leaving her on the other end of the country with her mom. I had to do something to change everything and do what I could to make sure I could do the best for myself so therefor I could do the best for Kat. I wont lie and say I'm happy. I'm working my way to getting to a place where I'm hoping to be happy. If that makes any sense.

Word of the Day: Sane

So I am not quite sane. I do feel different. I do feel a bit a change not only in the wind that is trying to catch up with me from the cross country move. Also a change in myself. I know something new of myself is going to happen. I wouldn't say I'm scared of the idea of change but I not know what to expect from it. I await it all and wake up each day at least willing to face the day ahead of me. I'm no longer staring at those same 4 wall and wondering what's life got left for me.


Least now I'm asking What's next for me?